Saturday, November 05, 2005

The Roller Coaster - or My Life...

I haven't posted anything in a while and I totally blame it on my state of mind.

Between school, work and family things have been rather hectic.

So lets see what has happened in my life since the last post...

School is going good, I have all A's except for Spanish which I simply just don't get. I study, I make index cards, I do exercises - but still I can not seem to pull myself out of the hole I am digging. I wish they had offered German.

Work is going good, we finished the growing season so no more letters to write to those who refuse to keep their lawns maintained. I have inventory and Departmental review to look forward to.

YEAH!

Family life has been extraordinarily good lately, better than it has been in 4 years. My wife and I reached a definite low spot in late September, early October. Divorce was brought up by both of us and we had a good honest heart to heart talk. We agreed to go to counseling and to work on our various perceived problems in communication and in the way we treat each other overall.

I think things are going to be ok. Now that is not to say that things may not get rough again once we get into counseling but we shall see.

Nothing ventured, nothing gained.

As always I remain...

Respectfully yours,

~ Terhune

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

FUBAR

Well the last week has been hectic as all get out.

I had a report due in my english History class, a test in my Spanish and I worked almost everyday that I was not in school. I am still helping a group of volunteers who are searching for missing people from Hurricane Katrina.

Most of the people we are searching for are elderly people, people from nursing homes or hospitals or hospices or shelters. So far we have found 25 missing people thorugh either searching databases or working the phones or what have you.

There have been a few sad moments as we discovered that the individual we have been looking for is deceased, but at least the family knows and they can begin the process of grief and acceptance.

On a personal note, I feel that the governments response to the Hurricane Katrina disaster has been negligent in the extreme. Every day you hear more and more reports about what they knew a head of time and questions of 'If they knew this was going to happen, why did they not....'.

It is FUBAR'd in my opinion and the only way out is to roll up our sleeves and get the job done. I think they are moving in the right direction with the nomination of R. David Paulison to accting FEMA Director:

Paulison, a career firefighter with 30 years of rescue experience, said he was busy "getting brought up to speed." Bush promised him in a Monday night phone call that he would have "the full support of the federal government," Paulison said.
Source of Quote

I know that this promotion or temporary job filling gives me some hope that Mr. Paulison knows a little bit about what he is doing since he actually has experience in Emergency Response. The next few months, and dare I say years, should be very interesting.

As always I remain...

Respectfully Yours,

~Terhune

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Helping Some of the Desplaced Americans

Well its been a few days since my last entry and I have been busy. I still have not been able to contact anyone about going south to help with the clean-up effort and now I hesitate to even go. According to the local papers, the National Guard down there is just sitting and those guys are not happy about it.

The United States, all the resources in the world and nothing being done.

I checked a few articles online lat night from ABC, CBS, NBC, CNN, FOX..you name it I was there reading. I came across an article about emergency responders who came from FLorida the day after the hurricane hit and drove to Mississippi. The gentlemen interviewed said that they had all this equipment, fresh people and training and they were put 40 miles inland to sit for a week.

He was very frustrated, said they might as well have stayed home.

So while I am at home, I have been helping to locate missing family members by putting up a blog for a group of people that are calling area hospitals , shelters, etc. etc.

So far we have found 3 people and have rumors of maybe a 4th!

So if you are reading this and have the time and the money and are willing to help call or search the internet please go the site and extend your hand and your heart.

As always I remain...

Respectfully Yours,

~Terhune

Saturday, September 03, 2005

Today and Yesterday

Well, yesterday was a bust.

I got up at like 5:45 a.m. and got ready for work. Went to work and was there like thirty minutes and I got sick.

Ok, I puked.

Needless to say I went home and got sick a few more times, crashed out from about 8 a.m. till 5 p.m. fixed me some soup and chilled on the couch watching movies.

Today I woke up and got ready for work - feeling much better. Today being Saturday, there is not a lot to do at the fire station so after going through our daily routine I sat down at the computer and started working on the report for my English History class that is due on the 8th of September. I finished the first draft about 9 tonight.

Now its all relaxation, at least it is if there is no fire or something.

As always I remain...

Respectfully Yours,

~ Terhune

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Refund Day - NOT!

Well today started off peachy.

My buddy and I decided that we would volunteer to go down to Mississippi or Louisiana to help out since we are firefighters and figured the guys down there might need a break. I got 15 days of vacation saved up and I am sure that I could swap with some of the other guys if more time was needed. I talked to all my professors today and they had no problem with me maybe going south to help out the people there - cool deal.

So I get done with my last class, which he let us out of early, and I walk like a mile and a half across campus with my 60 pound backpack to the big gym type complex where they are handing out refunds. The whole way over there I am thinking, I am gonna pay for daycare 6 months in advance and put some money on my credit cards, and then if I have any left over I am gonna take my wife out to eat at a nice restaurant and maybe, just maybe get a little lucky later on.

Hot Damn!!

Well so I get to the little lady with the 1960's style glasses, you know the horn rim job with the little glitter on the corner, and I hand her my I.D.

"You’re the one we were talking about earlier." She says as she reads my I.D. I decide right then and there that this can not be a good thing.

The girl beside her looks at my I.D and agrees that it was me they were talking about earlier and she begins to rifle through this massive printout. You know the kind; its got the big perforation on the sides for the little blunted spiky wheel thingy to spin in so that the paper can be fed into the printer and its got those really neato green and white strips all over it!

Needless to say there I am standing there, sweating. Waving goodbye to my dreams of wealth and relaxation, I shed a mental tear or two. Then she speaks again and the words I have dreaded every semester I have attended college spill out of her mouth.

"Your gonna have to go over to Financial Aid and ask them about your check, cause we ain't got it."

Shit.

I take my I.D. back from her and I walk back across campus and over to the Financial Aid office. I open the door to the building, climb a small flight of stairs and turn the corner into the hallway that leads to the Financial Aid office and I stop dead in my tracks.

It is lined with chairs, the entire hallway. Each chair is filled by the butt of another student that had to see the Financial Aid Officers.

"Um, is this the line to get in to see the Financial Aid Person?" I ask with what I am sure was a bewildered look on my face.

"Yep."

"You guys been sitting here long?"

"Yep, gotta sign in on the sheet inside."

Dammit! Ok, no big deal I think. So I walk into the office and find the sheet with my last names Initial on it and...every slot is filled in. Over half the people sitting in the chairs in the hallway are here to see the same person I am. There’s not even a blank line.

Shit.

So I sign my name on the bottom of the sheet, beneath the last line, and I return to the purgatory of the hallway and I find me a seat next to a pregnant girl who looks like she swallowed a ripe melon and I wait.

I play with my cell phone, call my wife, call my brother, and call my grandparents.

Still waiting.

Talk to the pregnant girl, she's due next week sometime.

Oh, oh, they called my name - sweet action!

I go into the offices and wind my way past file cabinets and computer desks that are packed with other students filling out forms and I sit in a chair outside the Financial Aid ladies office. There are 15 people waiting to see her.

I was better off in the hallway.

An hour later...I get to go into her office and low and behold, the University lost my paperwork. So I sign a sheet, she signs the sheet and I am done. Takes like 3 minutes tops.

As I wearily climb in my car and settle my bag on the passenger seat I have to wonder. If they knew I was missing some paperwork, why didn't I get a letter saying I was missing this paperwork? But then that would make sense wouldn't it.

As I am driving home I call my buddy. Still no word on if we are going to be going south. We made the offer, and that's what counts. I hang up with him and I turn the radio on.

Siouxsie and the Banshees are playing.."Cities in Dust". I like the song but it takes on a whole new meaning for me as I am driving. Gets me to thinking.

Anyway that’s today in a nutshell. I should get my refund back next week. I hope to hear something from our local Emergency Management guy tomorrow about going south. I'm working all weekend, what could be better on a holiday weekend?

As always I remain..

Respectfully Yours,

~ Terhune

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Developments in the South

It’s been another nonproductive day for me, or rather a boring day because I actually did quite a bit of school work today. The surprising thing was how quickly the day seemed to pass by. I am amazed at how late it is.

My brother got called back up today for a two week stint down in Louisiana. He goes to Fort Polk tomorrow and from there he had no clue what he would be doing exactly. I had the news channels playing in the background all day today and I am appalled by the looters that have crawled out of their holes in New Orleans.

Lets take advantage of the misery and misfortune that has struck our hometown and make the job of clean up and rescue that much harder by taking everything that isn’t nailed down and for an added bonus let’s shoot at the cops!

What a bunch of morons. I say the cops; National Guard and what not shoot looters on sight. Anyone who behaves the way those looters are behaving doesn’t deserve to breathe the same air as the rest of us – lets ventilate them.

Seriously it’s a shame the way the worst in human nature seems to appear during a disaster. I guess the scum just floats to the top.

I made a gazillion paper airplanes for my son today. I don’t think he threw one of them. He just ran around making swooshing noises and waving the paper airplanes in the air. It was funny, cute and interesting. I love watching how his mind works, how it seems to be developing more everyday.

Nothing else new on the home front; work and school rule the day while family rides along. Tomorrow is a new day...blah blah blah and all that jazz.

As always I remain…

Respectfully yours,

~ Terhune

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Beginnings and Aftermath

So today was the first day for our new professor. He seems to be a competent kind of guy, otherwise why would he have been hired. Its to soon to tell what kind of teacher he will be but I am afraid that he might have bitten off a bit more than he can chew with this new job.

The way that some of the other students where talking to him in class and he was allowing it blew my mind. It was like they had to interject something after every sentence he said - it drove me nuts. Anyway we shall see how it goes, I hope it goes very well for him and that we have a good class this semester.

Hurricane Katrina seems to have passed us by, but the folks down south in Louisiana, Mississippi and Alabama are in for a world of hurt. I heard on the news tonight that in New Orleans they have what emergency coordinators call a "toxic soup". It seems that all the chemicals and waste from the city are mixing it up with the bodies of the dead as the coffins pop out of the ground and float around.

That's bad stuff. Disease will be a major problem I am thinking. Prayer and hard work go a long way to fixing the things that need fixing, lets be sure to give them at least our prayers if not our support.

As always I remain...

Respectfully Yours,

~ Terhune

Monday, August 29, 2005

I am a Bum..

OK I have not posted in a while, my bad.

Summer II ended and I made it out with an A in my History course and a B in Statistics.

Now the Fall semester has started and I am taking 13 hours. Not a huge load but with me working full time and hanging out with the family - not to mention picking up the occasional extra shift - my time has become a precious commoditiy.

Well this semester I am taking the following courses:

Spanish 1 (3 hours)
English Hisotry 1603-1800 (3 hours)
Classical Greek History (3 hours)
African History (3 hours)
Career and Life Planning (Web) (1 hour)

Now on the first day of class which was last Tuesday, we were informed that there were no History Professors at the University because they all quit! Thats three of my classes!

Thank god there were some Seniors who needed the classes to graduate so they did not get canceled. MOst of them only have like 8 people in them so that should be cool. They did hire a new History Professor last Thursday and he/she is supposed to start on Tuesday I heard. Lets keep our fingers crossed on that one.

So my Spanish instructor gave us homework on Thursday that consisted of 25 sentences from Chapter 8. We had to break each word in the sentence down into syllables and underline the where the stress goes. It took me forever to do that - I kept doing it wrong..lol.

English History should be an experience. The instructor they put in there is unique - its the nicest way I can put it! No assignments yet but he keeps repeating that everything he says in class is testable, I hope that doesn't mean the roll call.

Classical Greek History is a void right now. The two times we have meet so far there has been no instructor. The new Professor is supposed to be taking it over so I have high hopes for tomorrow.

African History looks like it will be really interesting as the instructor is from Nigeria. So far we haven't gotten into the material, we have mainly talked about his growing up in Nigeria and the things he experienced. Its an interesting class so far I hope it lives up to my expectations.

The Career and Life Planning class is a joke. I am taking it online so I am hoping that will make it better but I see no reason why I should have to take it when I have a career, a retirement plan, a college saving account thingy for my son, and I have been married for 10 years. I mean HELLO - this class is a waste of my time and my money!!!

But you have to take it in order to graduate. One more way the university is screwing over thier students who do not fit into the mold of a traditional student - In My Honest Opinion.

Anyway, thats it for now.

As always I remain...

Respectfully Yours,

~ Terhune

Friday, July 22, 2005

The Week in Review July 16 - 22, 2005

The world is changing everyday. I have been watching events in London unfold over the net and on the television and I am amazed at how such events happen and are then handled by the authorities. I think back to September 11, 2001 and am amazed at the way in which our communities handled that situation. People are resilient.

For my parent’s generation it was always, where were you when President Kennedy was shot. For my generation, Generation X I think it is called, the questions are like this: Where were you when the Oklahoma Bombing happened, Did you see O.J. fleeing at five mph down the street in L.A., Where were you on September 11th?

Where as we all have out milestones in life that are personal, it seems that more and more we are also sharing milestones in our lives. The media lets us see events as they unfold as has never been available in the past. The media has a huge responsibility in not only what they report but in how they report it.

And these reporters who are at the events, or the situations – putting their lives at risk so that they can get out a story – they got nerves of steel. Of course often it is just in the course of doing their job that they are in the situations, but to stay there and remain in harms way or at risk; that takes a special kind of person.

On a different note, I got back two of my Statistics tests yesterday. I was rather disappointed in my grades and thought I had known the material better than that. Oh well, I just have to pass this class with a “C”. I hate that mentality really because I want to do my best, but with everything else going on with work and family; I guess I will take what I can get. The good news is that we get to take a make-up quiz on Monday that can replace a lower score if we do good on it so I will be taking that one.

My U.S. History from 1873-Present class is kind of stagnating. The instructor has excused us from class three days so far, and let us out early everyday so we are not getting our full two hours in the class. Not that I am really complaining, but I paid for two hours of instruction. I spent the time driving the hour to school, dealing with the bureaucracy of the University so that I could attend classes and I expect to be educated as well as I can be.

Overall it was a long week for me. I hate not having any money to go and buy my wife something or my son a toy just because. I don’t want to be forced to limit my gifts and such to regulated holidays and annual special events. To me everyday I wake up and spend with them is an amazing day, a day to cherish and remember.

Next week looks to be as busy as this past week. Three chapter summaries due on Monday for my History class, make-up test in Statistics, cleaning out the storage unit I got so that I can stop paying on it, various other things that come up will of course come up and screw up something else. Oh well, I look forward to next week and what it may bring with a positive attitude.

As always I remain…

Respectfully yours,

~ Terhune

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

SSDD - Well, you know...

I still have not decided how I am going to do this, daily, weekly, every other day…not real sure; maybe I will just wing it. Isn’t it funny how life invariably tosses a curveball at you just when you think you are getting a head. It’s like being Tantalus reaching for that drink of water, or trying to nibble on that luscious fruit.

Ok, so summer session two is in full swing and already there are exciting things happening for me. First off I am taking United States History 1873-Present and Statistic, Social not Business. Both these classes are interesting in and of themselves but I find that for some strange twilight zone reason I am liking the Statistics class better than the History class – go figure.

So my History teacher has covered three chapters in two weeks – it’s at this point that I am thinking, whoa this class is toast. Sadly that is not the case I was informed today that we have to summarize the next three chapters by Thursday. No pressure there I’ll just fit it between my family hour, yard maintenance schedule, household chores and tell the grandparents to stick it, I got to write a summary. I really hope he doesn’t expect a small novel cause he is not going to get it.

The Statistics class is a challenge, this guy is really pushing to cover as much of the book as possible and I am the only one in the entire class that seems to be catching on to it and over half the class took the exact same subject last semester and failed. That tends to worry me some but so far I haven’t seen anything nor had anything presented in class that was impossible to figure out. I think people are not listening to be honest. Got a test in there on Thursday – three chapters; discussed two of them today.

Today I also found out that my advisor at the University resigned. Great! Now I have to attempt to build a new relationship with another instructor and hope that they are as cool as my last one. I was kind of hoping to get my file from him too but I missed that window of opportunity. It seems that this university has a major problem keeping up with stuff so my old advisor kept a file for each student to put stuff into. Mine didn’t have as much as some of the other History majors but still it was my stuff, now it’s locked up. I am still not sure how I feel about that.

Why is it that finances seem to always cause problems in marriages? Stress and frustration levels jumped today as we discovered that my wife isn’t getting paid for July. Wonderful! (Did you hear the sarcasm?) It seems her contract was for only eleven months and not twelve as every other school district I can think of does. Now I have to use my refund from the University to pay bills that her check usually covers – I am not happy about that but you do what you got to do. I was going to try and get ahead on daycare payments but looks like that’s not going to happen.

I think I told you, dear reader, that I liked books in my previous writing; if I didn’t you know now. As I am sure the whole world knows that latest Harry Potter book just came out. Not sure how I feel about that, but I tell you I am tired of those people who say that Harry Potter confuses children and provides an avenue for the devil to enter their lives. That’s the biggest bunch of crap.

If parents would sit down with their children before reading the books and explain to them that it is fiction, then the kids can come ask them questions as they have them and quicker than you can say “Shazam” the problem is solved.

I heard a lady on the radio today make the comment that all fiction has a kernel of truth to it, she was trying to imply that the spell casting element of the books and the other occult type things were the kernel of truth. I was amazed at that. Yeah fiction does have kernels of truth in it, like being a friend is an important thing, standing up for yourself and others is a good thing; but I guess the magic far outweighs anything else the kids may gain from the books. A love of reading is a bad thing because books facilitate the spread of ideas.

Ideas bad. Ugh, Ugh.

There is no excusing ignorance and bigotry whether you are talking about books, people or things. It’s a shame that in the first half of the Twenty-First Century we still see such things. One of my favorite quotes is by Albert Einstein:

“The world is a dangerous place, not because of those who do evil, but because of those who look on and do nothing."

You have to wonder what the world would be like if people did stand up for others and themselves, instead of letting it be someone else’s problem. I would like to see my children grow up in a world not tainted by the sins of their forefathers but then again, we all have to have a dream don’t we.

Oh well, I guess that’s it for me. I remain as always….

Respectfully yours,

~ Terhune

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

And So It Begins...

Greetings and salutations, this is my first Blog, but hopefully it will not be my last. I have to get used to writing in this kind of format so it may be sketchy at first. You may be asking what the purpose of this Blog is and to be honest with you I cannot answer that at this time other than to say that I feel compelled to write.

What shall I write about? That is a good question to ask. Another good question could be what is this person passionate about, what drives them, piques their interest? Well there are a few things that I am passionate about and I am sure that I will speak on all of them at one time or another. For now I am mainly concerned with finishing school.

A little background first….

In 1994 I went to college. It was, is a small liberal arts college in a small town of around 10,000 people. Across the street from that college is another college but it is a Baptist College. In this environment I found myself cut loose, on my own with only my brother for company. I had such aspirations for my first time at college and it all came to naught with the following phrase:

“Hey ya’ll want to come over to the Fraternity house and meet some of the brothers?”

The die was cast. Into the realm of Greek Fraternity my brother and I plunged headlong. We were in a group with lots of really interesting and diverse people from the skater punk with hair down to his butt and the guy from New Zealand whose mother was a nurse to the guy who rode the bus from California for 40 hours just to get to school. Rush happened in a blur, not an alcoholic one because they had dry rush – sure we partook of some spirits every now and then but never with a member of the fraternity only with our fellow pledges.

Hell night came and went and we were full-fledged brothers in the Fraternity. Now, a side note for those reading this – my mistake was joining a fraternity my first semester at college, it provided to many interesting distractions the least of which were women and alcohol. Joining a Fraternity is not a bad thing you just have to have your priorities straight. So I joined a fraternity and had a good time.

My father says that I majored in women and alcohol my first semester and he is not wrong, it was that first semester that I met my future wife and I also discovered my love of good whiskey. It was all down hill from there academically. I went to class a total of 3 times the entire semester, I think I withdrew from all my classes at the end just to scavenge some kind of GPA from the two courses I was actually attending; choir and radio broadcasting.

The Spring semester was not much better but by this time my future wife and I were seeing each other exclusively and I was madly in love. My brother and I got an apartment in the town for the summer and slowly but steadily the last remaining apron strings were cut. Once school started again I outfitted myself like a champ and then again failed to attend classes withdrawing after a month. My first foray into college was a disaster for the most part; the best thing to come out of it was I meeting my wife. I mean its pretty bad when the Dean of Students calls you into his office to talk and he tells you that perhaps you were not cut out for college at this time. He was so right.

So after getting kicked out of an institution of higher learning, I decided to join another institution – the institution of marriage. So we got married, our anniversary is in December and it will be 10 years of wedded bliss. I had a new wife, a car payment, insurance and bill to worry about as well a mortgage to pay. No degree, no experience really in anything just my wits and my drive – which was not much at this time – and a desire to provide for my family and myself.

I won’t bore you with the litany of jobs that I have held, needless to say that they all fell into one of two categories; construction and retail. Now working construction is a noble effort, people need things to be built. Houses, business, etc. etc.: all must be built in order for society to continue to have one of the things necessary for survival, shelter. That being said I worked as a roofer and in hanging siding on people’s homes. Hot uncomfortable jobs but jobs that I found strangely pleasing and after a time very rewarding in and of themselves for the simple fact that I was helping to create something that others would enjoy and appreciate.

So I worked construction for a time and met many interesting people, some were normal, average, everyday citizens; others had followed a side path and I came into contact with men who had served time in prison for various things. Now some would have you look towards an ex-convict as some one bad, but I tell you these guys were a special breed. Most were hard working individuals who waited for their check on Friday and by Monday they were broke again. It was an interesting cycle and one that is not uncommon, but I found their stories of prison and of their weekend escapades most interesting.

Eventually I grew bored with construction, I admit that my attention span is not something I am proud of but it is something I have had to work on. As I was saying I grew tired of working construction and I began looking for another job. I soon found it as a worker in a bookstore. Now I love books, probably after my wife, son and God my next great love is books. This was the job of my dreams. I worked in a bookstore and I was able to steer other people to things that might interest them based on who they had read previously. To top it all off it was a fun job.

The only problem with the job was management. I am sure that you are not gasping in surprise at that statement. Management was workable though and after a few months a position opened up for an Assistant Manager and I took it; $21,000 a year salary, working like 60 hours a week. I was an idiot. The institution of slavery is alive and well in the United States, its called working on salary for a retail company (It’s also called minimum wage but that’s a whole story all on its own.).

Eventually I grew tired of the upper Management taking advantage of me and others by giving us all the bad hours while they took off every weekend and worked the midday shift so that they were at work by noon and home by like seven at night. It was this experience that convinced me of my past mistakes and impressed upon me the need to go back to school. The only problem was that neither my wife nor I had any credits towards graduation that were worth a damn.

Figuring I would have an easier time of finding a good job in more familiar surroundings. We moved back to my hometown, where we still live today and I got a job. I am still there amazingly enough after five years. My wife went back to school full time while I supported the family. It took her about 4 ½ years to graduate since she took one semester off to have our son, but she finished up and now has her own job that allows her to apply what she learned in college to her satisfaction and ours. Plus I personally like the paycheck.

Now that is the background information, which brings you pretty much up to date. Now we move into the current state of affairs, which I hope will provide plenty of thought provoking debate and curiosity to those who read this. Ok, it probably won’t but I figured an online journal would be cool to write; recording all my important thoughts and events as they occur on a day-by-day or week-by-week happening…or whatever the case may be.

So now it is my turn to go to school, in person. I spent the last two years taking courses online and obtained my AA in Social Sciences. Now I am working towards my degree in History. That dear reader brings you up to date on the foibles of fate and destiny that have led me here to this place in my life. I have recently begun to discover my own longing for an understanding of my faith while I also strive to complete my education. I have a wife and a son who also require my attentions and as mentioned before – my books.

Rest assured that reading this may be a toil; the writing of it is also no less strenuous. I beg your indulgence as you read on and hope that you find some kernels of truth, or wit or strange comedy, as you will.

Respectfully Yours,

~ Terhune